I know I have to be patient, and on some
days, waiting is easy. But on other days, when it seems like every other girl
is a normal teen, with a typical life, waiting can be so painful.
It’s these dreams that keep getting in the
way. Dreams of being sought after. Dancing at the school dances with that
special guy. Laughing with friends about trivial things. Carefree, happy days
with no actual stress. Things that seem to happen to teens in books all the
time. Or to every other teen around me. But life isn’t the same in books.
Though it will be exciting, graduating and
going on to better things, this year is just so full of endings. Opportunities
are now gone forever, because next year, I won’t be back. The last dance, the
last Valentine’s day, the last school play, the last classes. One part of me
wants to say goodbye now, and just get it over with. The lingering can become
so unbearable sometimes.
Still a teen and yet almost an adult. It’s
like being stuck between worlds, just awkwardly floundering and waiting for the
next change. Things that used to matter simply don’t any more. Some of us are
growing up already, while others have to be dragged by the ears.
The future seems to be a looming darkness,
unsafe and terrifying. Yet at the same time, the present will soon belong in
the past and will hold no place for me soon. I have to grow up and move on. The
next chapter will soon begin.
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