Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Desdemona

Desdemona

   I leaned my head against the windowpane. It was cold and made me shiver a little as I looked out at the falling rain.
  It was a grey, dismal day, the kind of day that sucked the energy out of you and made you sit somewhere, lifeless, until the sun came out. Which was exactly what I was doing. I was sitting on the window seat in my new room.
  Looking around, I sighed. My room was still filled with brown cardboard boxes. The boxes were filled with everything, from books, to clothes, to my art supplies. I hadn’t been very inspired to unpack them, despite my parents telling me to, over and over again.
  The rain drizzled on as I got up and went downstairs to where my parents were unpacking their own boxes. They hardly noticed me as I walked in the room. I looked around, hoping for something to do, but saw nothing that interested me. I sighed again, utterly bored.
  I hadn’t wanted to move. I loved my old home, back in the city. London. But then my parents both needed a change of scene and new inspiration for their books and blah blah blah. So we packed everything up and moved out into the country, near some nowhere little village.
  My parents loved the place, but I couldn’t say the same thing. There was no one my age around here. Just lots of old people who offered stale biscuits and drank lots of tea. And usually had lots of dogs or cats around. I was allergic to both.
  My mother was putting cups and plates onto a shelf when she finally noticed me standing there. She smoothed down her short, brown hair and said “Emma, if you have nothing to do, then you may as well help with unpacking.”
  I groaned. “Mum, we’ve been unpacking for days! I want a break for a little bit.”
She frowned a little but said nothing as she went back to her unpacking. My dad walked by carrying a bucket of cutlery. “If you’re just going to mope and sigh, then you can do it somewhere else. You may as well go outside and take a walk, if only for a little bit.”
  For some reason, a walk sounded like a good idea, even though it was still raining. I nodded and went to the front door. I grabbed my blue raincoat from the closet, put on my rain boots and then went out into the dreary outdoors.
  Everything seemed to be lacking color. It was late fall, so all the colorful leaves were now dark brown and lying dead underfoot. Tall skeleton trees lined the road as I trudged along, avoiding the large puddles. They seemed too tall, and over all very foreboding. I didn’t like the feeling they gave me.
  After about ten minutes of walking, I was just about ready to turn back when I saw someone sitting by the side of the road. I walked a little closer and saw that it was a rather old woman. She had silver hair that was tied in a bun, though it was a very messy bun. She wore a long dark dress that seemed rather out of place for this day and age; it reminded me of something from my history textbook.
  She saw me and smiled warmly. “Good afternoon, girl. Lovely weather, isn’t it? Come here and talk with me for a little while.” She smiled even more and I could that she was missing several teeth.
  For some reason though, something about her made me want to talk with her. I mentally shrugged. Why not? I had nothing better to do anyway.
   I walked over to her and saw that she was sitting in a fold up chair. As I walked closer, she pulled out another fold out chair and set it up. A little hesitantly, I sat down next to her.
  “There we are then.” She said. Now I could see that she was crocheting a long, red string. In fact, the string was so long that it trailed down all the way to the ground, sitting in the mud. But she didn’t seem to notice. Or maybe she simply didn’t care.
  “So who are you, dear girl?” She asked, her fingers never stopping for even a moment.
  “My name is Emma Leavenworth. My parents and I just moved here a couple of days ago, in the house down the road.”  I pointed in the direction of my house and she nodded, her fingers flying.
  “I heard about your family. I didn’t know they had a little girl though.”
  I nodded. “Well…they do. Me.”
 She smiled. “Any more of you? Siblings, I mean?”
  I shook my head and sighed. “Nope. Just me.”
She raised an eyebrow. “Ah, do I detect some unhappiness?”
 I shrugged. “I don’t know. It’s just, it’s always so boring being the only one, you know? My parents work all the time…they’re writers and are always writing! And I don’t even get to read what they write! It’s so boring.”
  “It would seem so, dear.” She said, nodding her head. The red string was even longer now, and I was surprised by how long it was getting. It was coiled in a little circle, going around her feet.
 “And what’s your name?” I finally asked her.
She smiled, though she didn’t show her teeth this time. “Desdemona.”
 “O-oh.” Was all I could think of to say. She nodded more. “Unusual, isn’t it?”
 “Yeah. But…it’s kind of cool.”
 “Why, thank you, dear child.”
  We fell silent again, the only sound being the rain falling on the ground. It wasn’t raining as hard as earlier, which was nice. Strangely enough though, Desdemona didn’t really seem to be all that wet, even though she wore no hat or raincoat. But I didn’t think much of it.
  “So, my dear, what do you think of this place?”
I shrugged, swinging my leg. “It’s not bad…but there’s no one my age around here. It’s kind of….boring.”
  For a moment, I thought she grinned. But then her face was normal again. Maybe I had just imagined it.
 “I’m afraid that’s the way it is, dear. You’re the first child to live around here since….let me see now….there was that little boy who….well it must be at least twenty years now….it’s been a long time, it has.”
  This seemed odd to me. “Any reason?”
  She shrugged and then frowned as a piece of her thread tangled up. She carefully fixed it and then said “Children have lived here, but…well, you see they don’t ever stay here for that long. It’s rather….odd….” she trailed off and started crocheting again, the tangle completely gone now.
 I sighed. “That’s too bad. Because if there were other kids here, then I would have someone to talk to.”
 She looked up, her fingers still flying. “What about your parents?”
 I shook my head, scowling. “They never have time for me. They’re always too busy for me.”
She raised an eyebrow. “Oh, that can’t be true.”
 “Oh but it is! If I disappeared….I don’t think they’d even care. Probably wouldn’t even notice.”
 The rain was starting to fall even harder now. I shivered a little and pulled my hood over my head, wiping away some rain drops from my face.
She spoke rather suddenly. “Emma, dear, would you like a present?”
 Warnings about not taking things from strangers alarmed in my head, but I ignored them. “All right, sure.”
  She stopped crocheting long enough to reach into a little bag that I hadn’t seen earlier. She rummaged about and finally pulled something out and held it in her hand.
 “Close your eyes and hold out your hands, dear.” She said, and I did so. I felt something cold and a little heavy get placed in my hands.
  “Alright, open them!” She said, sounding very excited.
I did and looked at what was in my hands. It was a very old looking watch, the kind you would see an old train conductor using. It was all golden and shiny, as if it was polished often. The glass front sparkled and the hands inside were actually moving. I looked at the watch in wonder, not quite believing that she actually meant to give it to me.
  “Wow, this is beautiful! But…are you sure you want to give it me? I mean, you just met me! This must be some sort of…I don’t know, heirloom or something. I-I can’t accept it.”
  She laughed a little. “Of course you can. I have many watches like this one, although each one is a little bit different. I want you to keep it, alright? Oh, but wait. I need to add something to it.”
  Picking up the long strand that she’d been working on, she took one end and tied it to the watch. Then, pulling out some scissors from her bag, she cut the other end so it wasn’t so long. Then she tied it off in a knot, so it wouldn’t unravel.
 “There. The red matches your hair.”
 I touched the watch gently; its’ smooth shiny face was somehow comforting. “Thank you so much.” I said, smiling.
 I suddenly realized what time the watch said; I had been gone for over an hour. “I should go home now. It’s probably time to eat.”
 Getting up, I folded the chair and placed it next to hers. She smiled and said “It was nice talking to you, my dear. I’m sure I'll be seeing you soon.”
 I waved goodbye and trudged back home. The rain had stopped now but the road was as muddy as ever. I nearly lost my boots several times as the mud tried to pull them off.
 Opening the front door, I said “I’m home!” But no one replied, as usual.
That night, I lay in my bed, thinking about the old woman. I pulled out the watched and looked at it for a long time, touching the face and twining the red chord around my fingers. I must have drifted off though, because next thing I knew, I was opening my eyes and looking around.
 But I wasn’t in my room. I sat up, very confused. I was lying on the ground, still holding the watch. I was covered only by a thin blanket. The walls were dark brown and as I touched the ground, I saw that it was only dirt. No floor.
 My heart pounding, and a bad feeling starting to rise, I got up and walked over to the doorway. There was no actual door, just a long piece of cloth covering it. I pushed it aside and gasped.
I wasn’t home. I wasn’t in the village. I wasn’t even in a forested, green area. Spread out before me was a sort of desert. Cacti and a few small shrubs dotted the place. I couldn’t see any signs of wildlife.
 The only signs of life were several small huts, spread out in a random fashion. As I stared at it all, a human came out of the hut nearest to me, and started picking some bits and pieces off of one of the bushes.
 I was feeling very scared now. This just wasn’t normal! I had to be dreaming! And yet…everything seemed so real. Too real.
 Before I could figure out what to do next, another figure appeared from around one of the huts, and started coming towards me. A dark feeling of dread filled me as I recognized that small, silver haired figure.
Desdemona.
 I ran towards her, nearly dropping the watch as I tripped over a small root. “Desdemona! What’s going on?”
 She grinned when she saw me and said “Ah, my dear Emma. Aren’t you pleased? You’re finally in a place with no parents that don’t pay attention to you! You’re surrounded my children your age!”
 My jaw dropped. “What are you talking about? Where am I?”
She was using a walking cane, which she leaned on now. “My dear, dear child. You’re in a new place. It’s not on earth. I suppose you might say it’s in another dimension.”
I gaped at her, sure she was crazy. “Are you serious?”
She nodded, still grinning. “I’m not human either. I simply come to earth, looking for something fun to do. Like sending bored, lonely little children to this place.” She motioned to it all with one hand. “This dry, dusty place.”
 I shook my head. “This can’t be real. How can it be?”
At this, she cackled, sending shivers down my back. “The watch. The red chord! All part of my little game. Hehehe, this is so much fun! The look on your face, dear. Priceless. But now I must be going. I have other children to play with.
 “What? You can’t leave me here! I want to go home! I want my parents!”
 She turned away from me, still laughing. “You yourself said they wouldn’t miss you if you disappeared. So it doesn’t matter, now does it?”
 “But I…” I trailed off, at a loss for words. I could feel hot tears welling up in my eyes now, and I bit my lip, trying to stop them.
“Goodbye, child. Enjoy your new life.” She said. Then she waved her stick around and disappeared without a sound.
 On their own accord, my legs carried me to the spot she vanished. I fell down to my knees, the tears falling now. “Please! Take me back!!” I screamed, my fingers clawing at the dry ground where she had been standing. “I want to go home! I want my parents!!”
Want my parents! A mocking echo replied. I stopped screaming, knowing that it was no use now.

End

Books Read-January 2012

This month has been crazy busy, with play practices and all that, so I haven't read my average sixteen books this month! (oh no!)
Showdown-Ted Dekker
Trickster's Queen-Tamora Peirce
The Divine Romance-Gene Edwards
Black-Ted Dekker
Red-Ted Dekker
True Irish Ghost Stories
Compete Aesops Fables
The Great Gatsby- F. Scott. Fitzgerald
The Cat Who Wasn't There-Lillian Jackson Braun

Total: 9

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Animalspeak #4-Wolf

Why do you always pick on that one wolf?
He is the lowest of the pack.
But why?
Because he is.
Is it because of something he did? What marks him as differant?
The pack does not want weaklings. Weaklings must be kept in their place.
I feel sorry for him though. His entire life, he spends trying to fit in with the pack, yet his efforts seem to be futile.
Is it not so with your people as well?
I suppose you are right. Why, even children, at early ages, will poick out a weaker one and shun him. Maybe because of appearance, or disability. But there often doesn't seem to be a reason...
Survival of the fittest, I say.
Hmm.

Real

If no one hears, do I still exsist?Would there be meaning or a purpouse,
if no one ever spoke to me?
Why am I real, what makes me so?
I'm only as real, I believe, as others
try to make me.
So I must try to make others real,
so that I'll real as well.

Artist

An artist, in my own way.Creating creations like my Creator.
Praising through work,
words gliding across a page.
Dreaming and seeing potential,
blank canvas could be anything.
Memories become my future,
sculpting, painting, writing, making.
Every success bringing joy,
every failure bringing knowledge.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Float

Erase me quickly,
Before I melt.
I don't think I exist,
I'm only imagined.
If you forget me,
will I still be real?
I'm not really here,
An invisible dreamer.
Drifting away on a string,
Floating away forever.

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Animalspeak #3-Cat

What do you actually do all day...do you really just nap? And eat?
While my body rests, I think.
And what do you think about?
Many things. Important things. Unimportant things. Each thought must be thought completely through.
It just seems as though all this thinking takes up a lot of time.
Silly girl. Tell me, what is time?
Well...it's a way of measuring...a way to keep organized.
Do you know that you humans have created a slave master?
What do you mean? Time keeps the world going in an orderly way! Without it, people would do things whenever. Nothing would ever work.
Time itself is not the problem. It is what you humans have made it. You have become shackled to it. You obey the call of Time, more and more, "wasting" it, punished for it, and in the end...so many of you wish you had more.
So you're saying we shouldn't have Time then? How would that even work?
Not that you shouldn't have it...but your lives are ruled by Time too much...but of course, I'm only a cat. What do I know?I thought you think great thoughts. Haven't you thought this out yet?
I have no need, because I don't bother with it. When I am hungry, I eat. When tired, I sleep.
Well, unfortunately, I have more responsibilities than just eating and sleeping.
And so I can afford to lie here all day, thinking great thoughts.
I guess so.

Animalspeak #2-Magpie

Why do you like shiny things so much?
I like how they look.
But that isn't useful...is it?
No.
So...why bother with shiny things then?
I am king because of my things. I have more, so I mean more.
You are nothing when you have nothing?
Nothing, nothing! No mate, no specialness.
I see.
Like you. You see?
You know, I think I do see. A little bit, anyway. More things seem to make people important. At least, they seem to think so. But what happens when you have too much?
Clutter. Nest breaks. Not good.
And so, more work for you, right?
Yes.
But why give yourself more work then? You really need a lot of things just to be important?
Yes. Shiny things, many things, mean I am special.
Reminds me of people just a little too much.
Silly, silly. Come, look at my shiny things.
Alright, friend.

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Animalspeak #1-Crow

I hear you, dear friend. But no, I can't come out to play. I have too many things to learn, to hear, to see. No, really, I can't come play right now. I'm sorry.
Please play, please, outside.
I can't, not yet. Oh, you cheeky fellow, taunting me. You're having such fun, aren't you?
Shiny...food...want some?
You can't come in here, you know that. Others don't like you and you'd be chased away.
I'm the king, I win. They can't chase me away.
Silly fellow...you're strong among your own kind, the one at the top of the garbage can. But here, where I am, you'd seem weak.
Foolishness....
I know. It all is, really. Funny how similiar our kinds really are sometimes.
We fight for food, because we need to eat. You fight...for what?
Nothing.
Nothing at all, except because of pride and selfishness and power.
You kill your own kind...for food?
Not really. I don't suppose you'd quite understand what 'war' is.
'War'...when all of you hurt each other...for a long time...food for us, then.
Yes, my friend...I suppose so.
Please come play now. You aren't learning anything anyway.
I don't suppose I am...

Snow Storm

Little promises of freedom,gently floating down from above.
Darkness becomes just a shade lighter,
and so the world is slowly transformed.
A blink of an eye, a lifetime later,
and all is a cold, frozen wasteland.
Wind dancing on unguarded flesh,
shivering bones clacking together.
A mess of tears, frozen in time, swirling around,
soft lights turning bitter, sharp crystals.
Slowly painting out the lines, all color
burnt away into a mesh of meaninglessness.
Life hangs frozen in the air,
suspended in a timeless landscape.
Eternity looms, all in a single moment.

Sunday, January 15, 2012

New Computer

This is a rather traumatic time right now...because for the past six years or so, we've had the same computer. But now it's on its' last legs...or...whatever computers have. So we got a new computer. Now, as happy and exciting as this may be, it's also so very stressful, because I'm in the process of transfering all my files and I'm nervously waiting for the computer to die or something. I feel sort of like Noah, herding all the animals onto the ark.
Or something like that. So here I am, praying that everything transfers properly.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Camera

Did you hear the cry?
Mournful tones calling to you.
Haunt your dreams, your thoughts.
Rot in luxury while they rot in death.
Can you help? No? Why not?
Indeed, why not?
What was your reasoning,
while you eat all your food
and drink all your wine.
Remember others who aren't you?
No, keep your eyes on your mirror,
because  you can only see your.
Are you so pretty that you can't look away?
Look into the camera instead
and please be horrified beyond words.
So while you laugh and be merry,
remember those who cry and fall dead.

Wonder

A hauntingly beautiful sight.
Walking corpses along the red field,
do it all in the name of glory.
Save the ones at home, they need it,
a beautiful wave of terror, rushing forward.
Such pretty bright lights and smoke.
Beautiful sprays of freedom,
falling down with such grace.
Lovely whistles in the air,
the song that ties all together.
Cries of anger, survival, victory...
Retreat now, it's over.
Because every soldier is dead.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Haunted Nursery

  “I wouldn’t go in there, if I were you.” Said Wellington as I tried to open a locked door.
   I frowned and turned to him. “Why ever not? This is my house now and I should think I have the right to go into every room, don’t you?”
 He wiped his balding head with a handkerchief and said “But Miss Morana, this is a very old house, in which there are some rooms where…well, you just shouldn’t go into this one!”
  I laughed and put a loose strand of hair back behind my ear. “Are you scared? You think a ghost might pop out and scare you? It’s just another room! This is my house now and I intend to explore every inch of it.”
 Wellington blew his nose in a rather nervous fashion and said “But…the Master never went in there. He even had this room padlocked. I-I don’t know where it’s gone now….”
  I rolled my eyes and rested my hands on my hips. “Listen, Wellington; you’re just the family butler, got it? I’m not my father. If he didn’t like to go into certain rooms, then whatever, that was his problem, got it?”
  Wellington nodded as he fiddled with his handkerchief. Then he put it in his pocket. “I understand, Miss Morana. I’m terribly sorry for speaking against you. I just thought that…that I should warn you!”
 I sighed, trying to be patient. I hadn’t seen him for a very long time and I had forgotten what he could be like. “Oh, Wellington…I’m sorry for getting angry, alright? It’s just that…ever since Dad died…everyone’s been trying to tell me what to do and how to behave, as if I was some commoner just because I haven’t lived here since Mom took me away. But I know how to behave! Even if I haven’t lived in this house since I was seven, that doesn’t mean I don’t know how to be the Lady Morana De Mors!”
  I turned away from him and frowned at the door, planning out how I would get into that room. I had been in nearly every other room in this large, rambling mansion, but this one…I didn’t even remember it from my childhood. It was rather odd, actually. Then again, I had only been seven, and now I was twenty-seven.
 Wellington…I really do want to get into this room, alright? So please, I’d appreciate it if you’d either help me get in, or go somewhere else.”
He looked at me nervously, crinkling up his handkerchief. “Alright, Miss Morana, I'll help you. But don’t say I didn’t warn you!”
I rolled my eyes but had to smile at him. “Thanks. Now, go get me the lock picking kit that’s on my nightstand. I bought it just before I came here, because I knew Dad would have locked rooms.”
He bowed his head and shuffled off while I inspected the lock again.

After about an hour of trying, I heard the tell-tale click and slowly opened the door. It took a considerable amount of force but I finally found myself standing in the doorway of the now unlocked room.
My first glance around the dark room relieved little. Like most of the abandoned rooms, sheets covered everything in a pitiful attempt to keep the dust away. I could tell, however, that there were large stacks of boxes on the far side of the room.
Wellington came up behind me, holding out a flashlight. I took it gratefully and said “I'll explore the room for awhile and then I'll have lunch.”
He bowed his head, saying “I'll go prepare it then.”
“Thanks, Wellington.” I said. He smiled but then glanced at the open door and walked away. I rolled my eyes and walked into the room.
My second quick look around proved to be more informative. Several boxes that weren’t covered by the sheets were open, and I could see little porcelain dolls peeking out. Their eyes stared at me, as if trying to speak to me, but failing. I shivered a little and looked around some more.
I could now see that on the floor were many little toys, most of them broken and all of them covered in cobwebs and dust. The more I tried to see them, the darker the room seemed to get, despite the small beam of my flashlight.
I whirled around as I heard a crash and then a shattering. Looking around the dark room, I could see that one of the boxes had fallen over for some reason. Several old dolls had smashed and now their pieces were lying all over the floor. As I bent down to pick one doll up, I thought I heard another sound.
 I stiffened and listened closely. It sounded like a baby crying. I frowned but then the noise stopped. Just my imagination.
But then there was a creak. I turned, just as the door closed. I ran over to it and pulled on the door, but it remained closed. I pounded on the door. “Wellington? If this is your idea of a joke, then I’m not amused! Let me out this second!”
Nothing happened. But then I heard the crying again. I turned around, my back now to the door. Shaking, I tried to see where the sound might be coming from, but I couldn’t tell.
It suddenly felt very cold and I sneezed, dropping the flashlight. The sound of both my sneeze and the shattering glass echoed and I felt like I was very small, in a very large room. This is stupid. Keep it together!
I saw something move out of the corner of my eye and I whirled to look, eyes wide in the darkness. A tinkly noise sounded and then the something moved again.
I took a step closer, trying to feel braver than I actually was. As my eyes adjusted a little, I saw that the thing that was moving was a large music box that was shaped like a merry-go-round. Miniature horses traveled around in circles, going up and down with the music. The music sounded vaguely familiar, for some reason. I tried to place it, but couldn’t.
But that still didn’t explain why the music box had just started up for no reason. I walked closer and touched it. It kept going, the song getting faster, instead of slowing down.
More noises came from behind me and I looked. An old rocking horse was moving on its own. I frowned. What is going on?. These things shouldn’t be moving!
Another faint sound came to me and I frowned, trying to figure out what it was. As it got louder, it also became clearer. Singing. A little child, singing.
“A ring, a ring, of roses; a pocket full of posies; ashes, ashes, we all fall down!”
I shivered and then called out “Hello? Who’s there?”
There was silence. And then a little white figure appeared before me, causing me to gasp.
“Want to play?” Asked the figure. It was a little girl, of maybe five or six years old. She wore an old faded dress, and had no shoes on. Her hair was a long, black tangled mess and her skin…her skin was as white as snow. It wasn’t normal.
“Who are you?” I asked, trying to keep my voice steady. She smiled at me, her eyes staring. Something about her eyes scared me, but I couldn’t quite put my finger on what it was.
“Morgan. And who are you?”
I was startled by the question. I mean, this was my house, after all. “I’m Morana. As in, the Lady Morona De Mors, the one who now owns this house?”
She stared at me blankly, as if none of that meant anything. I suddenly realized why her eyes scared me; either her pupils were enormous, or her eye color was pitch black. They were like the blackest of coals.
“You own this house? But what happened to…hmm…there was someone else, before, wasn’t there?”
I nodded. “Mr. De Mors? He was my father. He died and now I own this place.”
She frowned, biting her thin lip. “Dead? Too?”
I was confused. “What do you mean, ‘too’?”
She shook her head and twirled around. “I want to play. Play with me!”
This was ridiculous. And yet I found myself holding her hand, (which was very cold), and dancing with her. She sang her song again. “A ring, a ring, of roses; a pocket full of posies; ashes, ashes, we all fall down!”
We crashed to the ground and she started giggling wildly. I felt laughter bubble up and tried to quench it. But the more she laughed, the more I wanted to laugh. Finally, I gave into the feeling and laughed loudly. She grinned wickedly.
“I win. I made you laugh.” She announced as she stood up.
“So…what are you doing here, Morgan?” I asked her, also standing.
She frowned, the change so sudden that I almost laughed again. But her voice was so serious that I didn’t dare. “I belong here. I am home.”
“Um…no offense, but this is my house, you know. How can this be home for you?” I asked her, suddenly feeling wary of her again.
She looked away, shaking her head violently. “No, no! Can’t tell! He’ll be angry and then sad and I can’t tell, we’ll all fall down!” She ended in a singsong voice again and started twirling around.
“Listen, Morgan. I have to know why you’re in my house.” I said, taking a step towards her.
She shrieked and I was suddenly flung backwards into the far wall. I crumpled to the ground, the back of my head pounding. She continued to shriek, but it wasn’t as loud now. She seemed to be looking at something while she did, though I couldn’t tell what.
Then my vision started to go fuzzy and I fell unconscious.

“Miss Morana! Wake up, Miss!” Wellington’s voice came through my fogged mind and I opened my eyes slowly. I was in a well lit room; the library.
Sitting up slowly, I rubbed the back of my head and groaned. “What…what happened?”
Wellington handed me a glass of water and I took little sips from it. As I did, he began to explain.
“You see, Miss Morana, she couldn’t tell you because…well, she promised she wouldn’t.”
“But Wellington, who is she?”
“Your twin sister.”
I choked on my sip of water and he patted my back until I could breathe properly again. “My sister? My twin sister? Look at me, Wellington! Do I look like a little girl?”
He shook his head and waited for me to calm down so he could continue. “She is your twin sister, Miss. She’s also dead. A ghost. That’s why she appears the age that she is.”
I closed my eyes, sure that he had finally lost it.
“Please keep an open mind, Miss.” He said and I sighed, opening my eyes again. “All right, go on.”
“I’m not surprised you don’t remember her. When she died, you were upset for months, barely eating, not playing at all. The doctor finally said that you had completely suppressed your memories of her.”
I tried to argue against him but could say nothing. Even while he was explaining, little memories seemed to be peeping into my mind. Myself, but different. Laughing and playing with dolls. Oh no…those dolls!
“My old toys…they were in that room! Packed away!” I said, sitting up even more but falling back in pain. He nodded.
“The dolls were Morgan’s favorites. You couldn’t look at them without screaming after she died.”
I kept shaking my head, but I knew it all must have been true. “How did…how did she die?”
He sighed. “There’s part of the reason your father never said anything. This will be hard for you, Morana.”
I swallowed. “Tell me.”
He took a deep breath and began. “Your mother loved her work, as you know. She was seldom at home during the day, and your father was often doing work in his study. So you and Morgan had the run of the house. You were only five and a half. You two went everywhere together, exploring and making up games. You rarely were noticed all day.”
I nodded, taking it all in. I seemed to remember this much. “Go on.”
“Well, one day, your father was working on a very important part of his work. Morgan was yelling to you from across the house, but she was right outside his study. He grew angry and put her in the nursery, your room at the time, and locked her in for punishment. Then he went back to his work.”
I felt a lump growing in my stomach and I swallowed again. “Keep going.”
“Well…you know how wrapped up your father would become when working…so…well, he…”
“He forgot about her.” I said, knowing my father too well, though I still couldn’t quite believe it. “So…she died in there?”
He nodded. “When they found her, they all thought it was an accident, and your father never told anyone the truth. You went into instant depression and your father had an excuse to have the nursery locked up, along with all the toys. He decided not to remind you of her, after you got better. But then…after you left, he started seeing her. Hearing her laugh. He was tormented. So finally he went back into the nursery and spoke to her. Told her to never tell anyone what he had done. She was too scared to refuse, and so she never told. I only found out because your father told me, the night before he died.”
I closed my eyes, taking it all in and trying to sort it out. Finally, after what seemed like an eternity, I opened them. “I can’t stay here, you know.”
He nodded. “That’s probably for the best.”
A giggle came from somewhere out in the hall and I shivered again.
End  

Fantasy Pictures





Wallpaper

Moon is shining, window to the soul,
Stare through the paper doll,
Wallpaper hearts are raining,
Water rivulets, leading lines.
Into the ocean, dreams and wishes,
washed upon the rocky shore,
Starry expanse, scars and clouds,
Laughing scissors, cut into flesh,
Forget the heart and hopes behind,
Learn to forget, remember that.

Sunday, January 8, 2012

Larkland

Dark silhouette,
echoing thought.
Calling my name,
my heart soon caught.
Dear familiar stranger,
treading every dream.
Always calling to me,
from betwixt and between.

Faery

Light, hollow boned,
thin gauzy wings.
Slight dreams, a fantasy,
remembering future thoughts.
Songs and poems in the air,
reminiscing fear.
Hear old words,
gentle whispers in
a storm.
Stubborn heart,
Stubborn head.
Round and round we go,
Roller coaster dreamscape,
Never ending "fun".
Merry-go-round isn't merry.
Bullet flies but not as fast as
bad news.
Dreams and reality blend,
lines completely gone.

Thursday, January 5, 2012

Books Read-December 2011

From now on, I'm going to keep a list of the books I read, along with the author, and how many I read in each month. I know it's a little late, but here's December's list:
Merlin-Stephen R. Lawhead
The Son of Neptune-Rick Riordan
Lady Knight-Tamora Pierce
The Hunter's Moon-O. R. Melling
Shiver-Maggie Stiefvater
Linger-Maggie Stiefvater
Trickster's Choice-Tamora Pierce
The Forgotten Warrior-Erin Hunter
The Barcode Rebellion-Suzanne Weyn
The Rescue-Erin Hunter
Beyond the Code-Erin Hunter
The Light Bearer's Daughter- O.R. Melling
The Summer King-O.R. Melling
The Book of Dreams-O.R. Melling
In Her Majesty's Secret Service-Ian Fleming
The Man with the Golden Gun-Ian Fleming
Total: 16

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Shattered

Smashed to pieces,
torn apart.
Fallen on rocks,
a near broken heart.
Spiral downwards,
to a dark patch.
Ripped to shreds,
a broken latch.
Scattered in the wind,
for all to see.
Careless, oh well,
who cares about me.

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

The Land of Imagination Five-Fern

(The fifth short story I wrote when I was younger. This one is edited because I used it for a class assignment a couple of years ago.)
Fern 
  “What’s wrong, Raffi?”
  My husky looked sadly at me. She had been acting strangely all day, and I couldn’t figure out what was wrong. I asked her continuously what was wrong but she couldn’t tell me because she was mute. Now, you’re probably thinking,
  “Duh! Of course your pet husky can’t tell you anything. Dogs are supposed to be mute. Hello! Have you gone crazy?!”
  Well, to answer your question, I haven’t gone crazy, don’t worry. My other five pets can talk. Why? Well, they aren’t real animals. They’re imaginary pets. And I got all of them from a wonderful place called the Land Of Imagination or LOI. It’s a place where you can adopt abandoned imaginary pets, but only if you have a good imagination. So that explains the talking. But Raffi can’t talk, because I think her old owner, when she had first imagined Raffi, had also been mute. So now, here I am stuck with a mute and very worried husky.
   I gave up asking her and went to talk to her twin brother, Rio. He was looking over a new sled that I had imagined for him and Raffi. I sat down next to him. He glanced at me, then looked back at the sled. I said,
  “So, um, well, I don’t know how to say this nicely, but, uh, what’s wrong with Raffi?”
  He sighed, and looked at me. He looked worn out. He started to speak, then stopped, and then finally said
  “Raffi has, well, special abilities. Even though she can’t speak, she has other things. She can sense things, things that might be in the past, or… in the future,”
   He looked down. I was shocked. Did I have a telepathic husky? Yikes. What had I gotten myself into? I had to find out.
  “So, has she sensed something bad? Am I going to be attacked by my hairbrush tomorrow?”
   He looked at me sharply and said,
  “This isn’t a laughing matter. There are bad things happening in LOI and you’re joking about Raffi’s abilities,”
   He growled and I felt sorry for making my lame joke. Wait a minute. Did he say bad thing happening in LOI?!
  “What’s happening in LOI?” I blurted out.
   He stopped growling and sighed again.
   “There was a boy who adopted a pet from LOI. His pet was a Terrier puppy and they loved each other. But one day, in LOI, they went to the Wild Mountains, even though the Old Owl told them not to. They were attacked by a wild hawk. It picked up the puppy and flew off, despite the boys’ efforts to stop it. The boy has never been the same since then. He is very violent now, and he absolutely hates birds. Including the Old Owl.”
   I was shocked. How could any one hate the Old Owl? (The Old Owl is the mayor of LOI) Sure, he was a bit odd, but he was wonderful too. Wow. This boy must have lots of issues. I said,
  “So, what does this have to do with Raffi?”
  Rio looked down, then said,
   “Raffi has sensed that he is hunting down and capturing all the birds in LOI that he can. I suppose it’s his form of revenge.”
  I stared at him in disbelief. Hunting and capturing? In LOI?! That sort of thing only happens in the real world. I had to stop this kid. I was about to say so when Raffi came in and gave me a long stare. I looked at Rio and he translated, saying,
  “Raffi wants to go with you.”
  Okay, a rescue mission. Wait a minute. How did Rio know what Raffi wants?
  Rio, how did you know that?”
  He smiled and said, “Raffi is able to send me her thoughts. It’s quite amazing really.”
   Oh brother. Two telepathic dogs? What had I gotten myself into?!
*        *        *        *        *
  After I packed some food, Raffi, Rio and I set out for the Bridge of Mist. (This is how we get to LOI) We walked onto the Bridge and it got all misty. After a couple seconds of walking, the mist cleared and the bridge was gone. We were back in LOI! I had missed it so much. But something was wrong. None of the imaginary birds were singing. It was too quiet. We immediately went to the Old Owls tree house. When we got there, it was in shambles! The door had been ripped out and the Owls’ things were all over the floor. Rio and Raffi got a scent and followed it. The scent led to the base of the Wild Mountains. We could hear the faint sound of birds’ shrieking. Rio said,
  “Raffi says we must go up. The boy is up there and has all the LOI birds captive.”
  I stared up at the mountains. Go up? Oh dear.
*        *        *        *        *
  After a long, and dangerous, painful climb, we got to a flattened area that was shaped like a square. There were cliffs on three sides, but on the fourth side, there was the mouth of a cave. Bird shrieks came out of it and we walked over to it. It was very dark and some bits of rock fell down as we approached the entrance. I really didn’t want to go in, but how else would I save all the birds? I started to walk forward, but Raffi stopped me. She shook her head no and Rio translated,
  “She says that we can’t go in if there is no light source. You don’t have a flashlight, do you?”
   I hadn’t even thought of bringing one. What were we going to do? We couldn’t just walk into a dark cave and hope to not die or something. We sat down and thought for awhile. We finally decided to eat something, and then go in. As I started to get the food out of my backpack, I saw a bird sitting on a branch that was a few feet away. It was a big bald eagle and looked like a female. She cocked her head at me and said,
  “Are you Karlin? The great one who the Old Owl says will save us? You just made it through the bridge before that horrid little boy sealed it. You must be Karlin. Your hair gives you away.”
  I smiled. LOI birds usually chattered away and sometimes it was hard to talk with them. I said,
  “Yes, I am Karlin, and this is Rio and Raffi, my husky twins. We came to save you, as you said. But what was that about sealing the bridge?”
   The eagle shook her wings and said,
 “You don’t know about the bridge keeper? There is a skylark named Tok that fixes the bridge when it doesn’t solidify. And he also has the ability to seal and unseal the bridge so that no humans can come here. That horrid boy forced him to seal the bridge. You made it here just in time.”
   Wow. I didn’t know that you could control the bridge. But I could think about that later. I said,
  “So, can you help us rescue the other birds? We don’t have a light, so we can’t go into the cave. And what’s your name by the way?”
   She fluttered her wings and said, “My name is Fern, Queen of the Eagles. And I have a light. One of the owners left a flashlight here and I grabbed it, for such a time as this. So, what are we waiting for?”
*        *        *        *        *
  After about half an hour of running into spider webs and finding dead ends, we made it to the entrance of a big chamber. The bird shrieks were very loud now, and there was also a loud hissing sound that I couldn’t identify. Fern said she would scout on ahead and if she didn’t come back in ten minutes, then we could go in and would have to rescue her and every one else. Ten minutes later, Fern hadn’t come back and we discussed what to do. Rio said,
  “We need to go in now! We have to rescue the other birds!” I thought that was a good idea but Raffi shook her head. Rio translated, saying,
  “Raffi says there is a big animal thing that she’s never seen before. It is neither bird nor lizard. It has big scaly wings and shoots fire. We have to plan carefully.”
   I agreed and we all walked into the chamber. The sight that we saw was amazing. There were thousands of cages containing birds of every type. There were big and small birds, imagined and real birds. And they were all making as much noise as they could. And in the center of the cavern, there was a HUGE DRAGON!!! It was being ordered around by a little boy with dirt brown hair. The dragon had chains on its fore legs and the chains ran along the floor to a big ring in the wall. We looked around and finally found the Old Owl. He was in a cage that was probably made for a sparrow; he was about ten times to big for it. And he was attempting to clean himself! Oh brother. As I tried to figure out a way to rescue every one, I hear the dragon screech and I saw that it was battling a bird that wasn’t in a cage. It was a bald eagle, and it looked familiar. Rio tugged at my pant leg and said,
 “It’s Fern! She’s distracting the dragon for us! We must open the locks NOW!”
  We all ran to the nearest cage and tried to open the lock. But there wasn’t any key hole! What would we do? Suddenly, Fern screeched and I saw the dragons’ claw rip through her wing. She fell down and lay still. But I didn’t have time to think about that because suddenly the little boy started to run over. We were in trouble. The dragon was following him and they were coming fast. Before I knew it, the dragon had Rio and Raffi pinned down and I was cornered. The little boy laughed and said,
   “Did you really think that you could beat me? I imagined all those locks and cages, and now you can’t rescue the birds. I imagined this dragon, and he’s invincible. Where are you now? Will you surrender?”
  I didn’t know what to do. He had won. What else could I do? I didn’t have any powers. I was about to say yes, when suddenly a sweet, silent voice seemed to float into my mind. It said,
  “You do have a power. Your imagination. Use it! Unimagine it all!”
  I looked at Raffi and she nodded. I said,
  “As a member of the LOI parliament, I unimagine your dragon, and all the locks and cages in this chamber!”
  With that, the cages, the locks, and the dragon vanished. Every one was quite for a moment, and then a sparrow cried out,
 “We’re free!!!!!!”
   In a sudden frenzy, all the birds flew in every direction and they attacked the boy. They carried him out of the chamber and down the pathway to the outside. The husky twins and I were about to follow when I remembered Fern. I ran over to her and knelt down. She had lost a lot of blood and was unconscious. I carried her out of the cave. Most of the birds were already gone, dragging the boy with them. The Old Owl was still there though, with a couple of injured birds. He flew over to me when I came out and said, “Well done Karlin! I couldn’t have done it better. I am SO glad that you rescued us all,”
  I said, “Thanks, but I also had the help of Rio, Raffi, and Fern. What’s going to happen to the boy?”
   The Owl hooted and said,
   “He is going to be banned from LOI. This is very unusual for us, but under the circumstances, it’s necessary. Is Fern all right? Her wing will probably be permanently damaged. No one will want to adopt her. Unless…”
   He looked at me. Every time I had come to LOI, he had wanted me to adopt a pet. And I had always said yes.
   “I think you know my answer, sir. I can always adopt another pet. I’ll just have to imagine a whole new room, that’s all.”
   He nodded approvingly and said,
    “I know I can always count on you. Well, let’s go down.”  
*        *        *        *        *
  After we visited the LOI hospital, my three pets and I walked to the bridge. It had been unsealed a little while ago. The Old Owl had said goodbye and then left, saying something about tree house fixing. My pets crossed first, and then as I crossed, I started to make myself a promise about no more pets, but then I stopped my self. Of course I was going to adopt more pets. After all; I would be back in LOI.

The End? Maybe, maybe not

Monday, January 2, 2012

What am I? #1

(This is a "what am I" descriptive poem. Try and guess what it is. The answer will be at the bottom, written backwards.)
Can you guess what I am?
I bet you never will!
I taste like a good story; you'll want more and more.
I am as smooth as a perfect, red sphere of glass.
I smell like a silent song, hard to detect,
I sound like a distant avalanche, a million miles away.
My outside looks like a fire, frozen in mid-flicker.
My inside looks like the morning sun, shining on new snow.
I am a dragons tear drop.
I move like a rolling ball of red yarn.
I am as cold as early morning frost.
What can I possibly be?

(I am an "elppa")